Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand....

Assalamualaikum....

There is no excuse for me going AWOL here, i'm just feeling malas. i have like 1001 ideas to pour in my blog but frankly, i didn't feel like writing any. But today rasa rajin sikit so here we go :

1. I graduated last September and Alhamdullillah. These two best friends really had a big impact on my 2 year journey as a part time student. I don't think i would be able to endure anything without their help. Terima kasih banyak2 ya esp to my hubby. Orang tak tahu apa yg kita lalui kan? But I'm so glad you were there to guide me and to tahan all tantrums that I threw..huhuhu bebai :D. And to Sabrina Adia.. thank you sebab tolong jadi my one and only audience when I practiced for my endless presentations and thank you for your comments yang tajam itu..hehehehe

2. My 2 nieces got engaged and it was great. I just wish my mom was there to witness the event.

3. I seriously terus-terusan miss my mom. Someone told me.." sudah-sudah la" but you don't know how I feel and believe me, you would feel the same thing if your mom is no longer here (not that i pray for that ya..jangan salah anggap). Missing my mom means missing my one and only channel to talk and mengadu about anything under the sun. Tk perlu tapis-tapis. You can simply tell her anything and believe me she won't judge you. Like right now, someone hurt my feeling but I can't tell my husband or my sister.. Ohh..how I miss her. True enough la when people say Kasih ibu tak boleh diganti.. Memang betul... :"((

4. And that leads us to my last point. This is my resolution ( tak yah tunggu new year ya). Those who hurt me, those who are "green", it's okay. I have no anger, no grudge ya but I'll make sure I'll keep a distance. I know where I stand, and I know where I belong.. Don't worry, I won't even try to be in the circle ya..

Dear me,
FORGET WHAT HURT YOU IN THE PAST BUT NEVER FORGET WHAT IT TAUGHT YOU
Love,
Me

Every Word Was A Piece Of My Heart

I came across this song dalam youtube. It reminds me the time when i was first teaching in SMK Batu Lima, Sik. This song was literally a teman for me when I drove back and forth- Alor Star and school. At first I really hated the idea of teaching in rural area such as Sik but it won't take long for me to fall for the school. Budak2 baik and cikgu2 pun sangat baik! The song has got nothing to do with my life or my love life pun. It's just that I like Bon Jovi and this song happens to be one of my favs! :)

Woo..lamanya..

This shall be my first entry for 2011 lah ya..Lamanya tak write anything here..

What happened to me for the last 4 months? Here goes...

1. Have completed my thesis for my M.ed. submitted it a day after the dateline...huhuhu..
Totally qualitative sb tak tau guna SPSS!

2. Went to Kelantan for my hubby's re-u. Enjoyed the resort n the view n the shopping!

3. Still teaching in the same school but with a different post: guru kanan kemanusiaan, Alhamdullillah...

4. still loving the same man :p

5. Tak balik kampong for 3 months...sangat rindu..

That's all, thank you...hehehe

Untuk renungan :)

I came across this article in FB, shared by a friend of mine... Very interesting and useful. Kazrina, setuju dak?

Ibu Kita dan Kita Sebagai Ibu

* Lapangnya masa kita ada kaitan dengan keberkatan hidup kita. Kita adalah di bawah siksa Allah bilamasa ada masa untuk buat benda tak baik tapi takdak masa nak buat yang baik

* Jika kita tak pernah kecukupan duit maksudnya kita disiksa Allah

* *** Setitik air mata ibu jatuh, 10 kebajikan anak hilang so ibu2 jangan jatuh air mata ye and anak jangan bagi ibu jatuh air mata. Menangis kerana anak berjaya dan bukan sedih kerana angkara anak

* Kalau balik tengah malam, buka lampu tengok dan tatap muka ibu, sebab wajah orang tidur akan menampakkan segalanya

* Ada 3 mata yang tak dijilat api neraka Ø Melihat kaabah sehingga menitis air mata Ø Membaca quran sehingga menitis air mata Ø Memandang wajah ibu yg sedar tidur / sedar hingga berlinang air mata

* 3 orang yg kita kena tengok dan selalu pandang dalam hidup, tengok masa tidor! Ø Anak Ø Ibu Ø Suami

Selingan: kata ustaz kalau kita ada perselisihan faham dgn suami / isteri sampai nak bercerai, tgk laa muka bila dia tidor kalau masih terbit perasan kasih, saying, cinta, rindu atau simpati, janganlah bercerai tapi jika tiada rasa tu semua maksudnya jodoh dah memang takde, boleh proceed pi mahkamah J

* Orang yang selalu menatap and memandang ibunya takkan menangis di hari kematian ibunya… kira tak menangis teruk laa.. Bagi siapa yg masih ada ibu, pandang laa selalu

* Adalah menjadi satu dosa jika kita mengguna jari telunjuk untuk menujukkan sesuatu pada ibu

* Kalau ada niat yang baik teruskan laa..Allah akan bersama, jangan takut

* Kalau tak mampu lakukan sesuatu, pasang niat pun mencukupi e.g. tak mampu tolong org, niat nak tolong pun dah memadai

* *** Kalau kita tak mampu letakkan diri kita di tempat yang terbaik, Allah akan letakkan kita di tempat terbaik dengan syarat letakkan ibu kita di tempat yang terbaik

*Ada kaedah yang mana kita boleh minta pada Allah, “ungkit” kebaikan yang menimpa dengan tujuan untuk makbulkan doa kita. Kaedah tu dipanggil “wasilah amal” Ø “Ya Allah semalam aku sudah bersedekah sebanyak RM1, kalau itu satu kebaikan jadikanlah ia penyebab makbulnya doaku ini”*** Paling banyak buat baik dengan ibu kita, lagi mustajab. Makna dia wasilah amal ni sangat berkesan kalau yg dituntut tadi adalah hal-hal yang berkaitan kebaikan yang dibuat kepada ibu kita

* Antara lain yang boleh dituntut adalah apabila kita ditimpa sakit / musibah

* Kalau ditimpa sakit, baca laa Innalillahiwainnaillaihirojjiun, then cakap dengan Allah Ø “Ya Allah, berilah pahala besar untuk sakit yang aku tanggung ini” Ø “Ya Allah, bagilah aku keampunan dosa atas sakit ku ini”

Even suapkan anak pun kita boleh tuntut, apatah lagi sedekah kepada ibu dan orang yang memerlukan.

* *** Barang siapa yang tidak mendoakan ibu selepas sembahyang buat ibu yang sudah meninggal maka dikira dia anak derhaka walaupun pada waktu ibunya hidup dia tak pernah menderhaka. Maksudnya jika ibu masih hidup atau telah tiada, selepas setiap solat kita mesti doakannya!

*Doa orang yang masih hidup makbul untuk orang yang hidup dan mati. Jadi doakan ibu kita yang telah tiada!

*** Doa orang yang mati makbul untuk orang yang masih hidup

* Masa ni ustaz tu bagi contoh sadis sket..sedeh gak laa.. pi ke pusara mak kita cakap..“Mak, esok anak saya nak kawin, kalau mak ada tentu mak bahagia tengok cucu mak kawinkan” atau “bapa saya nak kawin esok, kalau bapa ada, pasti bapa akan gembira tengok sayakan..” Ustaz kata luahkan kepada ibu / bapa yang telah tiada kerana mereka mendengar dan mereka boleh mendoakan kita dari sana .

* Bila lalu kubur, perlahankan dan beri salam! Mereka akan doakan kita “berkatilah si A ini” dan jika tak bagi salam, mereka akan kata “celakahlah orang ini” Jadi, jangan lupa bagi salam next time

* Tanda tanda siksa Allah atas muka bumi ni antara lain simpan harta sampai mati tak pernah keluarkan

* Sesiapa yang bersedekah selalu, takkan miskin orang itu selamanya..

* Bila nak berbelanja @ shopping always spare duit untuk sedekah kerana dalam duit kita tu ada hak org susah. Jadi bila orang buta datang masa makan, bagi laa duit sebab kita nak cari org susah untuk sedekah dah amat susah masa sekrg and takde masa jadi Allah hantarkan org2 susah ini untuk kita dapatkan pahala!

**** Jika mak kita sudah meninggal dan semasa hayatnya kita ada peruntukkan wang untuk dia, bila mak kita dah takde teruskan memberi peruntukkan tu sebagai sedekah. Jangan kurangkan peruntukkan!! “Ya Allah, aku sedekahkan bagi pihak ibuku, semoga pahala sedekah ni sampai kepada ibuku”. Itu yang yang buat ibu kita bahagia di sana .

* Kalau kita susah nak bersedekah, bayangkan wajah ibu kita baru kita ringan tangan nak bersedekah

* *** Allah panjangkan usia ibu dan bapa supaya dia sakit dan nyanyuk untuk beri syurga pada anak anaknya. Jagalah mereka dengan baik insyallah, syurga balasanya. Jadi kalau tahu ibu / bapa sakit, berebutlah menjaga ibu / bapa kita. Besar sangat pahalanya.

* Allah kalau boleh taknak kita masuk neraka jadi Allah takkan matikan seseorang dalam keadaan kotor dan berdosa jadi dia bagi kita sakit / malu / miskin untuk membersihkan kita sebelum dia mengambil kita

* Kalau ada penyakit was was, bacalah surah al-ikhlas.. “Qulhuwallahuahad…” 1000x sehari

Anak Lari Dari Rumah

*Kalau anak lari dari rumah, gantungkan bajunya dihanger dan anginkan dan hadiahkan surah al-ikhlas setiap hari

* Masa lauangan azan yang pertama, panggilah nama anak kita, insyallah akan sampai panggilan kita kepadanya

Anak Degil

* *** Bila anak dah tidor, duduk di hujung kepala pangil ROH ANAK

**** Ni seram sket masa nak buat hehehe.. mula2 je lepas tu ok..e.g. Wahai roh anakku "nama anak", jadilah kamu roh yang baik, roh yang bertimbang rasa pada ibu dan bapa, roh yang taat pada Allah, roh yang sayang sesama manusia. You can ask anything! Nak anak senang bangun ke sekolah.. just try and see.

Wallahualam.., marilah kita sama2 praktikan mana yang bolehkan.

Abang Pi

I decided to write about him today, 14.12.2010, a year after he left us. It was a painful farewell esp to my husband. I didn't really know him thru and thru but he had a big impact on me too. Being the funniest man in the family, we really felt his absence. All his lawaks and kutuks linger in my mind :)

He was a good man. Didn't share his problems and kept everything to himself. I know he didn't want everyone to worry about him. He left behind 3 beautiful kids and a wife. I didn't shed a tear when he passed, not that I didn't feel the pain but 28 days before that, I too lost my mum and I've done enough of crying.His demise was abrupt as he was only 40 years old. Well, he was not really a fit man but for the rest of the family, it was really a surprise.

I don't actually know why it takes me a whole year to write about him. Maybe it was because of the never ending conflicts that emerged immediately after he died (which I do not wish to write here) or maybe as mentioned before, I was not that close to him as he was only my brother-in-law. We did share same interests like movies and choice of songs though.

One of many good things about him was he ALWAYS put family first and I mentioned this to my husband yesterday, if we were to go back to Parit Buntar, he would always be there, not to say to welcome us( See, kita tak perlukan apa-apa sebab untuk balik rumah mak sendiri ya ;p) but he definitely would be there and the brothers would chat till wee hours :)

I know my mother in law misses him soo much as he was her first baby. Frankly, I can't say that I understand what she feels but I know how it feels to lose someone dear to our hearts...Al-Fatihah....

Thank You For Loving Me

This song is dedicated to my hubby. Dia ja yang kenal me inside out, who doesn't judge me, accepts me for what I am. He accepts my flaws and I'm thankful for that... He's my golden best friend and I love him not only as my partner but as my closest friend. Sometimes the world can be so cold and cruel, but I'm glad I have him to share my stories and my problems with. It hurts when people make nasty remarks about you, where actually they know nothing about you, your life or your family. Please don't compare your life with others as you do not know what they have gone through. It makes me glad that Sharizal Sharif is a part of my life....